An exceptionally down day...

I've been trying to remain cheery and optimistic. I should be happy. Mark will be home in a few days, Christmas is next week, and Eric's birthday is a few days after that. Lots of fun and exciting things to plan for. Unfortunately, I think the stress of the situation is catching up with me.

I want my family back together. I'm ready for this to be done. I miss my husband. The kids miss their dad. The financial burden of our situation is also starting to weigh heavily on my mind. I feel like I have no one to rely on, to turn to.

I really wish we could just walk away from the house. That is not an option. Doing so could impact Mark's job and that is not something we can do.

I hate complaining about it. I don't want to bother people with my problems. But sometimes it gets to be too much to keep all inside.

I can't wait for this to be over.